Why Me.....Venting

sometimes I wish I could take back things I have done in my life...My son is right now acting like a terrible 3 yr old and my husband and I are always fighting about something... Sometimes I wish I could just disappear and be done with them both...I mean i love my son dearly but I dont think I was ready to be a mother at a young age or a wife....sometimes i wish i could just go out and party and not have care about anything and just live my life....My previous bfs where all assholes and in a way abuse of...and sometimes my husband can be like that...not physically but verbally/emotionally

I think thats why im soo into my stories that I am always reading...Ppl make fun of me cuz im always on my phone or computer reading but I think its way for me to escape things... I dont think Ill ever get over some things had has happened to me and let go of them...I think I hold on to them into order to keep my walls up and not let anyone in...